The last few days have been spent seeking the Lord’s will concerning something that was asked of me. I believe that He is telling me; not only by His word, but also by the remarks made by my friends and fellow prayer warriors that this is something He wants me to do. This will be something totally out of my comfort zone as the ministries I have previously been involved in were with youth. This one is not. It is with adults.
I am now preparing myself for this much-needed ministry and one thing hit me last night as I was working on a new technique in making jewelry. Last night I was learning how to make hooks for beads that only have a partial hole drilled in them, not one going all the way through. To keep the hook in place, you need E6000 craft glue on the shank of the hook to hold it in place. It then has to cure for at least 24 hours before it can be used in jewelry making. What hit me was “what glue is holding me together when facing the storms in my life.” Am I looking toward people to hold me together or am I looking to God? Sadly, I have looked to people too many times to hold me together while I fell apart. I have not leaned on God, as I should. I guess this is why He is leading me out of my comfort zone and into a new ministry.
God impressed on me to go back over the notes I have taken during church services, to reread what He has spoken to my heart. The things that stood out are, I AM is not finished. Stand up against those who would deny Christ. Stand up for those who cannot stand up for themselves – the abused, the down trodden, the babies, the hurting, etc… I am to stay focused on what God says, not what the media and anyone else says. It starts with me obeying what God is telling me to do. Stand strong, I AM is with you. I am yours and you are mine, thus saith the Lord. Watch what I AM is going to do. I Am, the breaker of bonds. Satan has NO hold over you anymore. Your past has no hold over you anymore. You are full of worth. I saved your life for a purpose. You are special.
Some know my story. Those that do know that some of what will be asked of me is not easy, but with the Lord’s strength, I can do it. The Lord is going to use my story to help others. The Lord is going to use the gifts He gave me to help others who are hurting. I just need to get out of the way and let Him work. Sunday Pastor Steve taught that the word of our testimony is valuable. I had never thought about that before. I have always seen my life as a failure: A failure as a daughter, as sister, an aunt, a granddaughter, a niece, an employee, etc. Nevertheless, God does not. He is going to use all the mistakes I made to bring someone to Himself. What I have learned through my mistakes can be passed on to others so that they do not make the same mistakes I did. The love and compassion He gave me for those who are hurting, He is going to use for His glory.
What “glue” is holding you together tonight? Is it alcohol? Illicit sex? Pornography? Crafts? Reading? Games? Does this “glue” really help in the end? I found my “glue” did not. My “glue” failed me more than it helped me. God showed me that in a very painful way. I still hurt from that lesson, but I am learning from it. Some of the things in the list are not bad things; however, if they are keeping you from leaning on the one person who can help you, they can be. Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths” (KJV).
I was not trusting God with all my heart. I was holding back a portion of it. He has patiently been waiting for me to give it all to Him. He wants a deeper relationship with His people. He is not the mean, angry God I grew up thinking He was. He is a loving, patient God who wants to spend time with me. He wants to spend time with you too. Let Him. He will be the “glue” that holds you together, no matter how big the storm is around you and in your life. He will always be there to hold, comfort, and give you the wisdom you need to get through to the other side. He will not fail you as other so-called “glues” do.