When Life Just Doesn’t Seem Fair

You look around and there are many people who have what you want, but are unable to achieve and you wonder why you can’t have it.  Ever feel like that?  I do.  A lot!

One year and a month ago today I was let go from my job at PMCS-ICAP.  Still no job and a few less friends since then.  I’ve learned a lot this year.  I’ve learned people are not to be trusted to keep their word.  I’ve learned that God has everything in control and I just need to lean on Him for everything.  I have found a great Church family who loves me as I am.  They want the best for me and don’t try to make me be who they think I should be.  For years I listened to those who would only accept me if I changed to be who they wanted me to be.  No more.  God made me who I am today, through all the ups and downs in my life, He molded me to be who He created me to be.  Do I still have room for improvement?  Sure.  I’m working on that.  However, no one has the right to tell me that I have to become someone else or tell anyone they should change from who they are.  When a child is constantly compared to someone else, their spirit is crushed and they begin to feel that they just don’t measure up.  In today’s society, little girls are told that if they aren’t skinny, have beautiful hair, teeth or smile they aren’t good enough.  Other girls and sometime boys bully them.  Adults see and hear about it and most don’t do anything about it.  This needs to stop.  There have been too many kids who have committed suicide because of bullies.

So, while I am still under construction by God, I will mess up.  I will stumble and fall.  I will keep going on as that is whom I am.  I want to be who God wants me to be, not whom someone else says I should be.  I will continue to be friendly and giving, though now I am very careful whom I give to.  I am tired of the narcissists in today’s society who think nothing of taking from others and then treating them like manure.  My love and time are more important to me to waste on people who don’t appreciate it.  I will continue to pray for them, but will have nothing to do with them.  These are the people who have drained me and made me doubt God’s love for me.  I feel sorry for them as they repel those who would love them and be close to them.  I really feel sorry for their kids if they have any because the kids will have a tainted view of what life is about, unless they have someone who is stable and full of God to come along side and guide them to God’s love and will for their life.  Many tears have been shed over what the kids have had to endure at the hands of the narcissists of this world.  What is more sickening is when the narcissist says they are a godly person and then continually manipulate situations and ruin other relationships with those manipulations and disregard God’s word and outright lie about things so that they can have what they want and injure the psyche and spirit of children that are around them.  My prayer for these types of people is that God will get a hold of them and show them what they have done and lead them to where they can admit to themselves that they need help.

A poem that has helped me through some of the darkest times for me is below.  Hope you all enjoy it and that it will help you as much as it has helped me.

In Hours of Discouragement, God Is Our Encouragement
Helen Steiner Rice

Sometimes we feel uncertain
and unsure of everything—
Afraid to make decisions,
dreading what the day will bring.
We keep wishing it were possible
to dispel all fear and doubt
And to understand more readily
just what life is all about.
God has given us answers,
which too often go unheeded,
But if we search His promises
we’ll find everything that’s needed
To lift our faltering spirits
and renew our courage, too,
For there’s absolutely nothing
too much for God to do…
For the Lord is our salvation
and our strength in every fight,
Our redeemer and protector,
our eternal guiding light.
He has promised to sustain us,
He’s our refuge from all harms,
And underneath this refuge
are the everlasting arms…
So cast your burden on Him,
seek His counsel when distressed,
And go to Him for comfort
when you’re lonely and oppressed…
For in God is our encouragement
in trouble and in trials,
And in suffering and in sorrow
He will turn our tears to smiles.

 

Heartbroken

Turn on the news and there is heartbreaking news everywhere.  From the shootings in Dallas to the terrorist attack in Nice, France and everywhere in between.  What has our world become?

Children being killed by those who are supposed to love them.  People attacked randomly on the streets.  Black Lives Matter spewing hate and our government inciting the violence with their rhetoric and political agenda.  When will it all end?

When did it become okay to break the law, be caught, and not have to pay the penalty?  Our government is full of corruption from the top down.  The expenses incurred by the current administration for personal vacations are astronomical.  They are wasting OUR hard-earned money for their pleasure and all they show the American citizens is contempt.  This was very evident by the photos and video taken at the memorial service for the Dallas police officers who were murdered last week.  Yes, murdered.  The liberal media will not say it, but I will.  They were targeted by the shooter, that makes it murder.  Our current President and First Lady seemed bored and angry at having to be there and then the speech by the President was not appropriate for the situation.  Now compare them to Former President George W. Bush and Former First Lady Laura Bush.  You could tell the pain they were feeling for the families and country by the expressions on their faces and body language.  You could also hear it in the speech that President Bush gave.  What a contrast.

We need change.  We need people in government who love this country, who support our military and who will protect its citizens from outside threats.  I am not going to get into the political issues, but I will say we all need to get out and vote.  This is the most important vote we have faced in a very long time.  This country needs you to vote your conscience.  This country needs you to pray for change.  This country needs God to be allowed back into the schools.  In the courts.  In Washington.  Everywhere in this once great nation.  When God was taken out of the schools, our nation started to decline.

Now, imagine the pain God is feeling over what is going on.  Can you?  I know I cannot.  He created us to love one another.  Not to fight amongst ourselves like we are.  Was he caught off guard by what is going on in the world today?  No, He knew.  Could He have stopped it?  Sure, He could have, but we as humans have Free Will and it was/is our choices that have brought about the events that we are seeing today.  Whether the choices and/or decisions are our personal choices and/or decisions or choices and/or decisions made by others, they shape our world around us.  As a born again Christian I know He is grieved by what is going on.  I also know He has a plan for each of us and He guides us along our personal journeys when we allow Him to.  When He sent His son to Earth to die for us, He didn’t send him to save just the white, or the just the blacks, or just the Jews, or the Americans.  He sent him to die for ALL of us!  He created us EQUAL.

To those so called Reverend’s that are stirring the pot with the Black community, I call them phony’s.  How can they say they are a Reverend of the Lord Jesus Christ and yet stir up dissention amongst the different races?  The Lord calls them hypocrites and wolves in sheep’s clothing.  While I cannot and will not judge their hearts, there is only one person who can do that.  That is God, which He will do on judgement day.  On that day, their life will be shown and only what they have done for Christ will stand.  However, in order for them to enter Heaven, they will have to had asked Christ into their hearts, asked Him to forgive them their sins and turned away from those sins.  That is the only way into Heaven.  Don’t believe me?  Check it out in God’s Word!  (Ephesian 2:8-9, Titus 3:4-5, Titus 2:11-12, Romans 6:15, Ephesians 2:10, Matthew 16:24)  Matthew 25:31-46 and Revelation Chapters 17-22 discuss what happens in the end before Eternity, the judgement seat and where people go who fool themselves that they are Christians by their works.

There is a new awakening coming.  The Lord is raising up His people across this nation and across the world.  Will you be one of them that will stand up and be counted with Christ?  I know I will be!!

 

 

Good Morning!! UFHA Fundraiser today in Pulaski!

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Good Morning everyone!!

Today I will be in Pulaski, NY at the South Park with many new items.   If you are in the Pulaski, NY area, drop in!!  There is going to be many vendors to shop from and great food provided by the Masons!

Below are some of the newest additions to the inventory!

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Hope everyone has an AWESOME day!

Remembering those who were once part of our lives, but now, are gone

How do we remember those that have gone on before us or for whatever other reason are no longer in our daily lives?  Is it with love and laughter?  Tears?  Regrets?  Heartbreak?  Great memories?  Painful memories?  No matter how we remember them, we do remember.  For some of us, we have lost many loved ones in the last couple of years.  People, who raised us, taught friends, family, co-workers, and us.  This list can go on forever with all the different relationships of people in our lives.

Do we forgive those who have hurt us?  On the other hand, do we let that hurt fester, grow, and allow it to eat at us and make us become bitter and spiteful?  Life is too short to hold onto those hurts.  This is a lesson that is very hard to learn and apply, trust me, I know very well.  I will not go into the details, but there was a person who really hurt me bad.  I thought I had forgiven this person; however, I still had bad thoughts and what they did was still bothering me.  I have had to continually ask the Lord to take these thoughts and memories away from me so that I do not have to deal with them and so I can move on with my life.  However, it was the wise words of one of the girls I mentored many years ago that has been of the greatest help.  She said “…first you have to forgive them and every time you have a bitter or mean thought you ask God to help you forgive them then you pray for them because when you are truly praying for them you can’t be mad at them.  Forgiveness can take years sometimes.”  Wow!  Talk about a brick hitting me upside the head!  Therefore, although it has not been easy, I have started praying for this person.  Most of the time it kinda goes like this:  “Lord, you know the situation, please remove the pain and bitterness within me, and be with (this person’s name).  I do not know what to pray for but You know where you want them to be and what they are doing.  Please show them where you want them to be.”  This person is no longer in my life.  Were there good times when we were friends?  Sure, and I remember those parts with pleasure.  The Lord puts some people in our lives for a very short time and others He puts there for a lifetime.  When He takes someone fully out of your life, you will know it.  He will shut the door and remove that person from your life after they have served His purpose.  Others He will allow periods of silence so that we can grow closer to Him and lean on Him for our strength and comfort instead of leaning on people.  This has been the lesson He has been teaching me the last few months.

Anger and bitterness is a cancer that the doctors cannot see or diagnose, but it is there.  In today’s society, there are those who are doing their best to divide this great nation.  They are pitting blacks against whites, blacks against Law Enforcement, Republicans against Democrats, poor and middle class against the rich, ethnic group against ethnic group and the list goes on.  Where will it end?  It will end when Christ comes.  Until then, we need to be praying and seeking God’s face.  We need to stop being the “silent majority” and get out there and vote on Election Day.  I am not going to tell you who or how to vote.  That is between you and God.  If we want America great again, we need to turn back to God.  This country was founded on Christian beliefs.  We need to go back to those beliefs.  Moreover, for those of you out there who think that Separation of Church and State means that pastors cannot preach about political things, you need to go back and research what it does mean.  What it means is that the State CANNOT establish a religion.  Here is a link if you want more information:  http://www.allabouthistory.org/separation-of-church-and-state.htm.

It is my firm belief that when we return to principles that this nation was founded on and we once again honor God, He will once again begin to Bless the United States.  We also need to be standing behind Israel, God’s chosen people.  In recent years, our government has gone against them, which is not right.  They have been our ally and friend for so many decades there in the Middle East.  God has said in His Word “…  Cursed be every one that curseth thee, And blessed be every one that blesseth thee.”  (Genesis 27:29b (ASV))  In this passage, Isaac is giving Jacob his blessing.  The Lord renamed Jacob, Israel, after he wrestled with angel in the night.  (Genesis 32:24-32)  Our current government is trying to destroy America and Israel.  They are doing this because of their own selfish desires and because of their religion, which has been at war with Israel for centuries.  The United States entered into this war totally unprepared to fight on their turf, as we did not have a good understanding of how ISIS and the other terror groups in the Middle East fight.  They do not fight like Americans or Europeans.  They fight as they have for centuries, only now they have modern weapons at their disposal.  The American public is largely uneducated as to the barbaric methods that have been used for centuries in the Middle East to fight.  They blame our military for not getting the job done and say they should have just gone in and blown them all to pieces.  In reality, that only works to a small extend against a fanatic group.  These people in the Middle East understand one thing, Strength.  We have shown them weakness in recent years and that is the reason for the increased attacks against us.  They see us as weak.  We can hate these people all we want, but it will not stop them from trying to attack us until we unite this nation again.  The current government is also trying to eradicate our religious history by using fear and by pitting religion against religion.

While I do not agree with our government and am ashamed of what we have become, I still pray that someday soon we will all open our eyes to what is truly going on here.  We need to move forward and forgive these men for putting us into the situation we are in, but we also need to learn from them what to watch for.  Yes, I said forgive.  If we do not, we are no better than they are.  They have been doing these things to the nation for years for their own selfish reasons and because, and I firmly believe this too, Satan has been using them to destroy the United States and our Christian heritage.  We are fighting a two front war people!  On the one front, we are fighting those humans who want nothing more than to amass large amounts of money for themselves, no matter the cost to others and this Great Nation.  They are willing to sleep with the Devil, so to speak, to do this.  On the other front, we are fighting against the spiritual world.  We are fighting against the powers of Satan.  Nevertheless, the Great news is, Satan has already been defeated once, when Christ rose from the grave!  He will be defeated again!  We need to know who are enemies are and their tactics.  Once we know that we know how to defend ourselves and how to destroy and defeat them.  That is good solid military logic.  You always have to know your enemy!

I will leave you with the post I did on Facebook honoring my Grandfather, William Lewis Webb.  He was a great man and he knew how to fight the spiritual battle against Satan.  He also loved this country very much and I think if he were here today, he would be saying the same things I have just said.

“On December 21, 1994, our family went through two life events.  About 9:30 am, William Lewis Webb went home to be with his precious Lord and Savior.  He slipped into eternity while his wife of 66 years played the organ for him and his daughter Joyce Miller sang Safe in the Arms of Jesus.  As the grandchildren gathered at their home on 41A, we all talked about the many things we remembered about gramps.  We had many laughs and many tears.  We even got brave and opened “the door” to the upstairs! 🙂

Later that day James Webb (Jimmer) was born.

Today I was thinking about gramps and an old forgotten memory came to mind of when he rode his motorcycle all over Fernwood, coming to see family and friends.  I remember being excited to see him pull in the driveway.  I also remember Gram calling to see if we knew where he was!  (hehehe)  Then the memories of riding up to camp with him and dad on the motorcycles came around.  I remembered a time when it was raining really bad when we were coming home and we had garbage bags on to try to keep us dry from Lake Bonaparte to Fernwood.

So many great memories of Gramps.  The fishing, playing Frisbee at Sand Bay, playing dominos, riding in the boat, the Christmases with them, the trips out west with them.  Then there were the parties at Selkirk State Park.  How many of you can still remember the scavenger hunt?  hehehehe

Then the bittersweet memories of watching the cancer drain him of his strength.  Of having to help him walk from the couch to the chair.  Of playing the piano for him to get his mind off of the pain.  Of listening to him retell the stories of his childhood so someone would remember them and pass them on.  Of making lemon jello for him so he could taste what he was eating.  Of saying goodbye to him the last time.  Of hearing him tell me he loved me for the last time.  Of seeing him laying finally at peace and pain free in the casket at his funeral service. Of the graveside service.

But I couldn’t wish him back.  Not the way he was in the end.  This man who loved me unconditionally.  Who taught me how to jerry rig a boat motor, how to open the camp up on my own, how to fish, how to shoot, how to clean fish, how to drive a boat and most importantly a man who showed me that God was important to him and in his life.  Gram used to always get after him for not remembering scripture like some of the stories he told, but truth be known, he did remember scripture.  He knew scripture in a different way than anyone I knew.  He knew it deeply and intimately.  I want to be like him.  Loving God as a very intimate friend and knowing His word so deeply and understanding it in a way that showed that intimate relationship.  He wasn’t fake or trying to impress anyone.  He lived his life loving his wife, kids, grandkids, great grandkids, his country, but most of all his Lord and Savior.  He was real.  You do not find men like him very much these days.

Therefore, today and every day, I honor my grandfather, William Lewis Webb, for his love and example of what a Godly man looks like.  Thanks Gramps!  Until I see you again in Heaven!

All my love,

Your “little” one, Jodi”

May everyone have a great day and reflect on this at your leisure.  Do some researches for yourselves, some things may really surprise you.  Things that you thought were in the constitution are not!  🙂